You may know my name. Possibleng nakakausap din kita. You may call me your friend. But are you sure you know me?

Mahilig akong tumawa. Grabe ako ma depress. Nangttrip ako pag gusto ko. Nagmamahal ako ng totoo. I ♥ love. I don't give up that easy and I love unconditionally. Madali akong maapektuhan ng kahit maliliit na bagay lang. Fragile much? Maybe. Paranoid ako paminsan. Oo na sige palagi. Ayoko kasi ng taguan, I want an open and honest relationship. I hate plastikan kasi ang hirap kaya. Nakakasunog. Mas mabuti pang wag mo na lang siyang kausapin. HAHA. Speechless ako paminsan kaya quiet lang ako. I appreciate silence so much. Kaya kahit magalit ka sakin, tahimik pa din ako. LOL. Kahit na saktan mo ko, mahal pa rin kita at the end of the day. I love to forgive others kahit na gaano kasama yung ginawa niya sakin. I may be mean at times pero gustong gusto ko lang mang bully at mangasar. HAHA. Pero pag mageexpress naman ng feelings, madali akong maiyak kasi ang hirap pigilin eh baka magexplode ako. HAHA. I have few friends whom I value so much kasi hindi ka na makaka kita ng mga katulad nila sa mental hospital eh. Iba na ang panahon ngayon. Madrama ako paminsan. Emo? HAHA. Medyo. Ang saya kaya maging emo. HAHA. Pero atleast naeexpress ko sa mga taong mahal ko kung gano ko sila ka love diba? Ayoko nung kung kelan ako mamamatay tska ko maeexpress sakanila yung love ko. Most of all, I believe in FOREVER in YOU. Oo na lang. HAHA:))

My Memorable 18th Birthday: From My Loving Family

When I was turning 18 my family told me, "kesa mag bonggang birthday ka pumunta ka na lang sa America atleast makikita mo pa mga pamangkin mo tska si Ate". My older sister, Jane, lived there for 6 years now. So ayun, I was supposed to travel alone but I'm scared of heights and airplanes so I begged them to let my mom accompany me. Aside from being nervous, I was so excited and imagined things that could happen. Here are some of our pictures:

Our arrival in LAX. The guy at my left is my nephew, Kyle.

A tear dropped when I saw them. I feel so speechless and happy. Besides, it's my first time to see my younger nephew since he was born.

I love everything I see the moment I stepped out of the airport. It was so cold.

When we reached their house, I unpacked my things tapos pumunta ako sa sala at nakipaglaro sa pamangkin ko. Sobrang cute na cute ako sakanya. He was fluently speaking english but can understand some tagalog hanggang sa pinatulog na siya. Hindi ako makatulog noon so sinabi nila na magcomputer muna ako. Nagcomputer ako hanggang umaga. HAHA.

The next day. All of them left the house except for me and my mom. Kasi may work sila Ate tska yung asawa nia tapos may pasok naman mga pamangkin ko. We were bored kaya nagdecide kami na mag jogging. Naglibot kami sa community. It was so different compared dito. Nakakapanibago but it was nice kasi nakalimutan ko lahat ng problema ko sa sobrang enjoy doon. Malapit lang din sila sa iilang shop, restaurants at sa Target (grocery store).

Pumunta kami sa. . .

Downtown Disney

Disneyland

Sea World

Universal Studio

Redondo Beach

Newport Beach

Las Vegas

Los Angeles Cathedral

California Adventure

Aside from all this pictures, my most favorite of all is this one. . .

I Love them so much.

I miss miss everyone. We cried before I went inside the waiting area and I can't stop crying until I was in the airplane. I REALLY HATE GOODBYES. :( I don't even want to leave.

But I need to go back to finish college. :)

My X-boyfriend's Sister

We have known each other for seven years. Her name is Pam. We met at Magis Academy when I was in 1st year high school. We were so close. I remember the days when I used to feed her like a baby while she was sitting in my lap. She slept at our house the whole vacation and I felt that I was given a sister I never had. 1 day, I was shocked to find out that they have to move to Ireland because their mother was given the opportunity to work there. I was in second year that time. Her brother broke up with me because he doesn't believe in long distance relationship. They last visit the Philippines when I was in 1st year college and now, they're back and she's all grown up but sadly, they will be leaving this August 14, 2010 and will be visiting again after 5 years. I'll surely miss her again.

L-O-V-E

Our relationship has never followed the rules.

We've never been the kind of fairy-tale couple you see in the movies.

It seems like we're either head over heels in love or crazy with frustration.

We're not perfect, and neither is this relationship.

But you know what?

It's ours.

All ours---the little jokes that only we understand, the way our hands naturally find each others, and the memories that seem so wonderful now that we look back.

Our relationship will never be perfect, but it will always be an important part of me.

Audition For Motion

Pagdating namin sa school ng Friday ng umaga, habang naghihintay kami sa teacher namin, nagkkwento yung friend ko sakin about sa nakita niyang post tungkol sa audition ng dance sa school. Sabi niya sumali daw kami, try lang. Nung una, joke joke lang hanggang sa naging seryoso na. Goodluck talaga. Hindi naman kasi ako sanay sa malaking crowd, baka makalimutan ko lang lahat ng steps. Haha. So yun na nga, tinext niya yung friend niyang dancer para turuan kami ng steps.

Sa sobrang pagod, nakakalimutan namin yung steps. Hanggang nung 1 day na lang before nung audition, nirevise na lang namin since may trabaho na yung friend niya and hindi siya available that day. Edi okay na. Nung day ng audition, sobrang daming tao. Gusto ko na talaga magback out! Grabe lang. Di ko talaga kaya. Alam kong makakalimutan ko lahat ng steps. Okay lang sana kung judges lang eh. Besides almost 3 days lang yung preparation namin so posibleng ma mental block talaga.

Habang kabado, nanuod kami ng mga nagpeperform. Sobrang lakas ng pressure samin kasi syempre naiisip din namin na kung magpapatalo ba kami sa fear namin? or ano na lang iisipin ng ibang tao? na loser kami? NO WAY! HAHA. So hinintay namin na mabawasan yung crowd hanggang ayun na. Andun na kami sa stage. Since wala kaming sound system, yung cellphone ko yung ginamit namin. Nakakatawa lang, habang nagsasayaw kami, biglang tumawag ate ko, pinapauwi na ko! Haha. Tawa ng tawa yung audience.

Sabi nung nag cocontrol ng sounds, cellphone na lang daw niya yung gagamitin. 2nd time na namin sumayaw, nanginginig ako sa hiya pero inisip ko na lang na kaya ko! kaya ko! hanggang sa tapos na! Atleast na prove ko sa sarili ko na kaya ko at na overcome ko yung fear ko! ;)

Do I have to cry for you?

The love we've had before different compared to what we have right now. I don't know what happened and I miss those days where there's only you and I. Time run so fast, I can't keep up. Filled with unending fights of mistake and imperfections, you force me to change into your ideal perfection. It was not easy as you think it is. I kept on reminding you that "no one is perfect" but you won't even listen. All you care about was your feelings and care less about what I would feel. You promised that you will control your temper and that you won't change me, then here you are controlling how things should really be. You kept on telling me you love me, that were going to last forever but I honestly can't feel you love. Almost everyday, even the small things make you angry. I don't know who's fault it is anymore because all I do is accept the blame you throw at me. There's nothing I could do but keep it to myself and cry. I'm so fed up but I can't stand to break up with you because my feelings was always there. The love I have for you is unconditional and no one could keep us apart. I believe that someday you'll change, it takes time and I'll wait for that.

LOVE and ACCEPTANCE VS. ANGER and PRIDE

In a relationship, there comes a time that we argue no matter how much we love each other. Some become irrational, and maybe you may find yourself wondering why. Always keep in mind that no one is perfect and all of us make mistakes. There is no point of blaming on who's fault it was or explaining your point of view. The more you blame or explain, the more it will become worse.

Some people ended their relationship because of unending fights but if they only knew breaking up is not the solution. They say that "patience is a virtue"but not all people can control their temper. So, you should stop thinking about what you feel and consider others' feelings. Be careful of the words that come out of your mouth and your actions as well.

If you know that a certain action or word could make them angry, then don't do/say it. There are lots of things you can do to prevent such arguments from happening. Then it will show how important that someone is to you. Never let an argument last for days, finish it 5-15mins. after the argument besides at the end of the day your heart still belongs to them.

Almost all of the people are looking for perfection in any relationship and only few sees perfection in an imperfect person.