L-O-V-E

Our relationship has never followed the rules.

We've never been the kind of fairy-tale couple you see in the movies.

It seems like we're either head over heels in love or crazy with frustration.

We're not perfect, and neither is this relationship.

But you know what?

It's ours.

All ours---the little jokes that only we understand, the way our hands naturally find each others, and the memories that seem so wonderful now that we look back.

Our relationship will never be perfect, but it will always be an important part of me.

Audition For Motion

Pagdating namin sa school ng Friday ng umaga, habang naghihintay kami sa teacher namin, nagkkwento yung friend ko sakin about sa nakita niyang post tungkol sa audition ng dance sa school. Sabi niya sumali daw kami, try lang. Nung una, joke joke lang hanggang sa naging seryoso na. Goodluck talaga. Hindi naman kasi ako sanay sa malaking crowd, baka makalimutan ko lang lahat ng steps. Haha. So yun na nga, tinext niya yung friend niyang dancer para turuan kami ng steps.

Sa sobrang pagod, nakakalimutan namin yung steps. Hanggang nung 1 day na lang before nung audition, nirevise na lang namin since may trabaho na yung friend niya and hindi siya available that day. Edi okay na. Nung day ng audition, sobrang daming tao. Gusto ko na talaga magback out! Grabe lang. Di ko talaga kaya. Alam kong makakalimutan ko lahat ng steps. Okay lang sana kung judges lang eh. Besides almost 3 days lang yung preparation namin so posibleng ma mental block talaga.

Habang kabado, nanuod kami ng mga nagpeperform. Sobrang lakas ng pressure samin kasi syempre naiisip din namin na kung magpapatalo ba kami sa fear namin? or ano na lang iisipin ng ibang tao? na loser kami? NO WAY! HAHA. So hinintay namin na mabawasan yung crowd hanggang ayun na. Andun na kami sa stage. Since wala kaming sound system, yung cellphone ko yung ginamit namin. Nakakatawa lang, habang nagsasayaw kami, biglang tumawag ate ko, pinapauwi na ko! Haha. Tawa ng tawa yung audience.

Sabi nung nag cocontrol ng sounds, cellphone na lang daw niya yung gagamitin. 2nd time na namin sumayaw, nanginginig ako sa hiya pero inisip ko na lang na kaya ko! kaya ko! hanggang sa tapos na! Atleast na prove ko sa sarili ko na kaya ko at na overcome ko yung fear ko! ;)

Do I have to cry for you?

The love we've had before different compared to what we have right now. I don't know what happened and I miss those days where there's only you and I. Time run so fast, I can't keep up. Filled with unending fights of mistake and imperfections, you force me to change into your ideal perfection. It was not easy as you think it is. I kept on reminding you that "no one is perfect" but you won't even listen. All you care about was your feelings and care less about what I would feel. You promised that you will control your temper and that you won't change me, then here you are controlling how things should really be. You kept on telling me you love me, that were going to last forever but I honestly can't feel you love. Almost everyday, even the small things make you angry. I don't know who's fault it is anymore because all I do is accept the blame you throw at me. There's nothing I could do but keep it to myself and cry. I'm so fed up but I can't stand to break up with you because my feelings was always there. The love I have for you is unconditional and no one could keep us apart. I believe that someday you'll change, it takes time and I'll wait for that.